Sam

Wait! u dont think tht i'm gunna talk abt Sam Winchester, rite? Cz i'm not gunna do tht. I mean not this time..

Now, i'll tell abt another Sam..

He's someone tht i used to know. He's my friend. We're bff, u know, hahahhaha. He knows abt mr. H and mr. D.. Idk why, i always tell everything to him. Everything abt my feelings, my family, my absurd jokes, everything, even the vulgar ones, hahaha dont get me wrong. 

for example:

My dad told me to not wear t-shirt to church and i said to him "if i dont wear it, so wht to wear? Just a bra to church? its nut!" and my dad just laughed. I told tht to sam and sam did the same thing, he laughed. Andri said tht i should not tell ths to Sam cz he's a boy. Its too vulgar. But, Sam never complains me abt tht.. I think he's okay with tht.

He's a cool guy, not my type actualy. He cant make me laugh. His jokes dont work on me. But idk, somehow he makes me feel save. comfort. but awkward in the same time.

idk wht makes me wanna tell him abt my first love. Maybe bcz he talks rarely. Maybe bcz he's younger than me. Tapi dia suka bilang kalo kita seumuran.. he's 5 months younger than me, it is younger, isnt?

He said tht he's my fan.. he's kidding.. 

He said tht i'm beautiful, i know he's kidding cz i'm not beautiful, i'm handsome -___-

his typcal gf:

baik, lucu, enak dilihat

Dari ketiga kriteria itu, neng cuman memenuhi kriteria yang terakhir, hahhahha. 

He's like my dad too much! 

one of my cell group member told tht he has a naughty sister. He cant stand. And Sam told him to love his sister. Its what exactly my dad always says to me. Everytime i angry to my brothers, my dad says 'love ur brothers!'.. I think dad doesnt really know wht love is. I dont want my brothers do the wrong things. When sam told so, for a second i saw my dad on him.

So, wht make me feel save around him? maybe cz he's like my dad.

A lot of things tht i dont like from him. I dont like the way Sam looks ppl. Idk, i just dont. Everytime i talk w him, i push my self to look at his eyes, cz its hard. He has strange glance.

I dont like his music.

i dont like his kindness.. He's such a good guy and i dont like it.

i dont like the way he treats all of his fans.

he says 'biasa aja' for almost everything and i dont like it.

when he plays guitar, i think he imitates someone, idk who, but i think the way he plays its not really him. So i dont like it.

i dont like him when he wears yellow. its not fit on him.

kta sering berantem buat hal yang ga penting, itu juga gasuka. cz kalo udah berantem kita suka gasadar kalo ada orang2 yang ngeliatin kita.

etc etc

he always tells me tht i can get mr. D in my hand.. I think he has bigger faith than i do abt tht. He believes tht i can get along with mr.D. And me? i never think tht far. 

Like Sapardi Djoko Damono, i'm gunna say

aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana

dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan

kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya debu

aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana

dengan isyarat yang tak sempat tersampaikan

awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada

yeah, for me love is tht simple. i dont have to have the one tht i love, i think. It will be complicated when i push my self to get him.

Sam knows my typical bf, so if u like me, ask him everything abt me, my fav color, my fam, my dad, my fav music, my first love, etc..

i did something wrong to sam, i think he wont believe me anymore. He doesnt hav to sih sebenernya. Too much mistakes tht i made. I just wanna treat him well after these. 

does he want to listen to me anymore?

does he want to tell me his secrets anymore?

i guess not.

Sorry, sam..

Sorry, i dont hav courage to say these things to u.

Sorry, to said tht to her, cz i thought she had to know.

Sorry, i dont tell u abt tht blonde guy. Honestly, idk. am i in love with him or not. Its too silly, u know.. I dont tell u a thing cz idk wht to tell. Its too crazy for me. Okay, no excuse. the fact is i lied to u. sorry for tht.

Sorry sam.. 

u know wht, its hard to not tell anything abt me to u. i feel like something's missing and idk wht it is.

i bet u wont wanna listen to me anymore, rite sammy?

and hey, kenapa sih kamu suka nanya pertanyaan yg menyudutkan? ky sms kamu yg terakhir ..hahhahaa..

p.s: after this post maybe, ur fans are gunna after me.. and my fans are gunna after u to ask everything abt me... get ready for those!!

Dean Winchester

Lately, i've been watching Supernatural.. First time i saw this serial is on TV, i forgot the year. I saw the first season and i think this serial wasnt really cool like Heroes or Gossip Girl. I know a girl who crazy on ths serial, Syeren. She talks abt ths serial over and over but i never really listen, hahahha.. Sorry for tht, Syer..peace!

A few months ago, Adi gave me ths serial.. I left it on my computer for months, cz i think its serial, i'm not a kinda person who stand watching any serials, sinetrons even korean dramas. Its boring for me.. I always wanna know how the ending quickly.. I'm sick of waiting hahaha naha jadi kadinya?

One day, i watched Season 2 and it's really badass!! I love it and continue watching till present hehe..

How i love Dean's character.. How he loves his brother, his sense of humor, his look, he's the best!.. I felt wht Dean's felt abt his bro. I know how hard to be an older. We, the elder, always worry abt wht our lil bro/sis. We get mad when somebody hurt them. I love my brothers and my sister very much. I'm gunna do everything for em. 

anyway, here's a video. Dean's absurdness.. But i love this.. I cut it from an episode of Season 4.  There are 8 seasons. hahhaha..

Idk Jensen Ackles' character cz i love dean Winchester not Jensen Ackles, hahahah

You're Addicted To Me, Stalker!

1.nanya rambut neng

2. username yg sama2 plesetan.

3. Hey Monday, on of my fav band.. kenapa namanya Hey Monday? gegara mereka pengen hari Senin itu menyenangkan ..

4. Lagu Tahu Diri

5. +

6. MxPx and RHCP

7. Ngok

8. Down

9. Bangunlah Jiwaku

10.  5cm

11. Baik dan Tulus




i guess, u're already addicted to me, sir!

watch out ur step!

BAKMY Time-Andri's Accident

Senin, 11 November 2012, if i dont forget the date..

neng ama monka ke rumah Andri.. kita dateng ke rumahnya Andri, yeah like others Monday.. Like what i said, i love Monday, cz in Monday i can meet my twins: Andri, Monka and uwok..

But tht day, uwok wasnt there..

so, it just 3 of us..

we watched Ba-Bo.. its such a touching korean film. ..
we ate, dont wanna talk abt wht we ate tht night.. its kinda bimbimbap. but the weird one, i think, hahhaa.. but we enjoyed it..hahaha

we shared abt wht we've been through this week.. We laughed, we cried, no i mean, i cried, they didnt..Hahahha...

we talked abt uwok's accident.. her leg hurt. But she's fine.. hahha, i know wht u think,  What the part of fine if ur leg hurt? Hahha, but she's fine now..

Neng and monka went home abt 10.30pm.

The following day Andri texted me and tell me that she's got an accident. A motor cycle hit her and her mother cycle. Thats why neng, monka and uwok came to her house yesterday..

We wanna make sure tht she's okay.. Hmm.. she's not really okay.. her telapak kaki hurt, but i think its okay. She said tht accident made her feel like she is in the action film, thats why i think . she's okay cz she braged to us..ahahha..

But her motorcycle was broke. really broke.. cz it rollled over and over.. She did too but dont know why, she's fine. She's just fine..

When ppl helped her and aske her "can u gp home by ur self?" she said "i can" but she cant. She didnt know who to phone to pick her up.. Her Dad cant riding. Noone in her home can riding. And when she told it to me i directly said "My Dad! Why didnt u call my dad?" and she said "i cant remember anything tht moment. i was shock".

so she went home alone.. rode her Vario and cried..

Dulu juga pernah, Desi, dedenya Monka kecelakaan, ayah neng yang nanganin.. yeha, we close tht much.


i shared abt my accident story too.. i felt the same.. I didnt get hurt, if u wanna call 'badan jadi pegel' hurt, go ahead, for me its nothing.. i mean i wasnt bleeding. But its really hard accident, until now, i still dont know why i'm okay. Maybe thank to God its enough than asking tht stupid question...

jadi waktu itu neng lagi nyebrang dan ada motor yang nabrak neng, badan neng kebawa ampe beberapa meter sama motor itu. Neng bisa ngerasain kalo kaki neng ga napak ke tanah dan badan neng kebawa dengan mudahnya ama s motor itu.. disitu ga tau mesti mikir apa. Neng bahkan ga teriak sama sekali. Motor itu berhenti dan kaki neng nyentuh tanah lagi tapi neng ga sampe jatuh.. Banyak orang yang ngeliatin dan si bapak yang ngendarain motor nanya "neng, gapapa?" neng ga ngejawab pertanyaan bapak itu, neng langsung lari ke rumah dan masuk ke kamar dengan tatapan kosong. Di kamar neng ga nangis.. Neng berusaha buat nginget2 apa yang udah terjadi sama neng..

Tiba2 ada anak2 yang teriak di depan rumah neng dan bilang 'mamah engguh, tadi kakaknya engguh ketabrak'. Nneg dari kamar bisa ngedenger itu dan langsung ngeh kalo tadi neng baru aja ketabrak. Mamah langsung riweuh nyamperin neng ke kamar dan nanya kondisi neng.. neng ngerasa baik2 aja. terus kata mamah, neng harusnya pura2 kesakitan dan minta uang ama si bapaknya.. Yeah right, my mom style..


Kata agnes sih, neng teh syok jadi weh ky gitu dan orang yang syok itu lebih mungkin buat mati dr pada orang yang berdarah2.. cz orang yang syok bisa ngelukain dirinya sendiri tanpa dia sadarin..


back to yesterday..
like we always do, we laughed at something tht we thought its funny.. for some ppl we're weird but t what the hell is wrong of being weirdo?